Torn

Physically I may not seem very active.  I used to be an athlete but now not much.  I got too caught up in competition.  The push to be better.  I put it over injury, illness, everything.  I get that drive when I work too.  My problem is I get bored with the same thing day in and day out.  That's another reason why I like the idea of being a consultant and a public speaker.  It would always be different because people are always different.  I can talk about stereotyping people with disabilities all day. Show the same movies use the same words and it would still be different.  The responses would be different. Any questions would always be presented in a new way. 

I am torn because I need a job.  I need to make money.  I need to fight for my home.  I want to really work on the writing  and the public speaking stuff.  Is there a way I can do both?  My care provider's taking the day off on Saturday because Monday is her birthday and she wants Saturday off to celebrate.  I can transfer on my own again so if she takes off a day or two It shouldn't bother me. This weekend I plan to work on the public speaking web site,  Of course keep up with the blog, begin letter writing to the Governor or the state about the house issue, And maybe even write a bit in the children's book I have been writing for about a year now.  I thought about it for two or three years before I wrote it.  I am not as prolific as I'd like to be.  I wish some of the bigger issues in my life (job and home ) would be settled so I could deal with the other issues (building back my reputation and making a name for myself)  I have always told people when I work with them "one thing at a time.  Home and job are priority. (in that order.)  I just have to do what I can do and pray that I can handle what comes.