Not much to say

Most days I am full of things to say.  Always ready to stand up for a cause.  Always ready to find info to help someone or tell them what calls to make.  Today I got nothing.  I am even a bit ambivalent about the Glee finale last night.  It was OK.  I loved when they met Patti Lupone and she told Rachael and Finn to never give up.  I loved the R word commercial with the actors who play Becky and Sue.  I hated the original songs.  I hated the fact they did not place at nationals.  I am also fighting a bout of what I think is Irritable Bowel Syndrome or IBS.  This means I really don't want to go anywhere or do anything.  I did do my bi monthly run to the dollar store to get the basics.  So today I am just going through the motions and thinking of happier days. 

My friend told me I can't see how I affect people because I am so frustrated.  He is probably right.  He told me that I should keep inspiring.  But do I want to be what I called "the inspirational cripple"?  We see it in all the movies and all the news stories.  I get so tired of those.  What I would like to do is to get people to think.  Why am I not getting this job?  Is it because I am not the best qualified? Or is it because I have a disability?  What does the answer mean for you or for me?  Is your instinct to turn away?  Or are you interested in really knowing me?  Can we date?  Fall in love?

Is fighting for what I want in life an inspiration?  It might be if it makes you do the same.  I look at my outreach and speeches as a small way to start thinking.  If  we think about why we do things or say things that are destructive, maybe we won't do or say these things.  Think about how we use or used to use the "r" word.  People are really thinking about it now.  Will it change things?  I don't know.  I have at least 1 person I know who hated that word.  I bet it makes her feel a bit better.  If I inspire you to action go for it!  If your just bored.  I understand.  Sometimes I am too.  Take Care