Friends

I have some really good friends.  I may not speak to them on a daily basis but I do have them.  Most of them are local.  But I have a few friends that are scattered all over the country.  I have a few more around the world.  I like that about myself.  I am a friendly person who is capable of making friends from anywhere.  I was recently feeling sad and depressed at my lack of job and possibly lack of home, that I posted on Facebook that I felt like a failure.  I got a post from an acquaintance "No one is a failure." Everyone has a reason for being here and the world needs intelligent people like me."  The words were nice and they helped.

But the real surprise came from someone I was once in love with.  This old friend was never a lover or sweet heart of any kind except in my head.  Several years ago, he and I worked together.  I the athlete, he the coach.  After being together for four or five years, he broke my heart by telling me his a promotion at his job made it impossible for him to coach me any longer.   Angry and hurt I left never to return.  He eventually left that job and went on to be successful at other jobs.  He is now married with children of his own.  Eventually we got back on speaking terms.  We chat every once in a while through E mail and Facebook posts.  He replied to my failure post.  I sent him an update of me via E mail.  I will not post his reply on such a public page but the gist of it was:

• I am actually not a failure.  I do a lot and Ive no idea how what I do affects people.
• I have been through a lot Dad's death, still in home, accidents, robberies and muggings, crazy roommates and I am still here.
• I am not afraid to be alone, to speak my mind, and to fight for change.
• I am letting my frustration cloud my vision. Something good will come my way.
• Keep inspiring

Though the inspirational cripple is a stereotype I try to avoid, his words made me cry.  (In a good way)  Now you see why I once loved him so much. I honestly feel he meant that not as a generalization but as a that's why you are special and why YOU WILL SUCCEED. His existence is also the reason why I won't settle for some idiot who thinks sweet words about how pretty I am and how lonely I must be will get me to open my legs and maybe my wallet or my home.  I know everyone is unique but there has to be someone out there who will talk to me with respect and caring like he does. Maybe this next guy will even love me too.  Anyway Here's to all my friends.  I love you and thanks.