One day out.

I saved up some money today to take my care provider to lunch.It is her birthday.  The restaurant we wanted to go to was closed today.  We tried a second restaurant that was closed too.  Finally we picked a restaurant and called there to make sure it was open.  This third place was not either of our favorite places, but we dealt with it.  That's the thing about life you just have to deal with it.  My friend used to say to me "You know what they say.  Pull up your big girl panties and deal with it."  I have a T shirt that says that.  My friend bought me a plaque that says that.  One day I saw a catalog that has a plaque that said "If I pull up my big girl panties and deal with it one more time, the elastic is going to break and someone is going to see my A&%".  That's a plaque I want to get. It's how I feel about life right now.

I tried to forget about my own problems and issues.  I really wanted to enjoy something.  As you probably guessed, it did not work out the way I planned.  My anxieties are way up. I never sleep well anymore.  Everyone I know is praying for me to resolve this and I just have the feeling God isn't listening.  What's that story we hear?  Some adult prays for something like a new job or new car whatever.  The thing that was prayed for never happens.  The parent says to the child "God didn't answer my prayer."  The child says "Yes he did! he just said NO!"  God please don't say no to me on the house issue.  If the blogs I follow are listed on this blog, I did find a blog on anxiety issues.  Also I think this web site had some interesting stuff. 

Anxiety info  Might help you figure out if you have some anxiety issues and how to treat them.  Me I have an appointment with a counselor  the first week of June and it can't come too soon for me.  We will talk later.