Life and lemons

When life gives you lemons make lemonade.  How many times have we heard this?  I have tried to adhere to this policy.  There is always another way.  There is always another side.  There is always another letter to write for your cause.  But can life give you so many lemons you drown in lemonade?  sometimes it feels like that.  I have been fighting to keep my home for over a year now.In fact, It's getting close to two years.  I have just gotten notice that I have been turned down for the program I keep hearing I'm a shoe in for.  I have hurt my foot. (it is getting better) and I still have no job.  Lemons are all over the place. As your head spins through this process what do you do?

1. Decide how far you want to go to fight this.(My home contributes to my quality of life so I will fight as far and as hard as I can.
2. Rally the troops. -I called my attorney who is helping me with this.  He says they are wrong.  I agree now what do we do about it.
3. Prepare for any scenario-  Just in case I loose my home I contacted my case manager who will be on the lookout for emergency housing and hopefully help me find homes for the four legged children.
4. Try not to blame yourself.  (My Mom will blame me enough for both of us) Seriously, there are many people going through this and many people have gone through this.  They are not bad people they made bad choices.  Same for me.  (This is the hardest for me.  Losing one's home is big)
5. Life has to keep going.  Life never stopped for you before.  Its not going to do it now.  I am still me.  I have good friends and people who care.

I say this to myself everyday.  This doesn't mean I won't cry, scream and hurt.  I grew up here.  I created this life with me and the care provider, the housemates and the four legged children.  My heart WILL BREAK there is no doubt.  This loss if it happens will be huge.  But with help and support my heart will grow back I hope.  Any thoughts are helpful I don't want to drown in lemonade.  Take care