Happy Father's day all

Today has been a tough day for a while now.  Today is Dad's day.  My dad died years ago but Dad's day is still tough for me.  I loved my dad even though he had his own issues.  My dad had a big heart and an alcohol problem.  Shrinks say that is why I am so independent.  I am used to people who are there but not really there.  I don't know if that is true.  I do know that I miss my dad every day.  I wonder if he stayed as proud of me in death as he was in life.  I wonder is he mad with me about the house issue.  Does he see my niece growing up to be as strong willed as her daddy?  Is he proud of my brother for being a daddy?  He turned out to be a good one.

I believe in the possibility of ghosts and spirits.  I think a lot of people who claim to contact them are fake.  I think spirits and ghosts and angels are real.  In 1996 I was hit by a car while crossing the street in my wheelchair.  I was expelled from the chair and landed on the street  about 30 or 40 feet from where I was hit.  I knew everything that had happened. I knew I hit the ground hard because I could see the vibrations go through my limbs as they hit the ground.  Yet I felt as though I was placed there gently.  It could have been shock or adrenal glands kicking in, but I think it was angels or some friend or relative that had passed away protecting me from life threatening injuries. I see my dad from time to time too.  I see him in dreams mostly.   He has not been in a while.  I saw him all the time when he first died.  Once he came to me and told me he would be here to help.  Not to worry.  It really made me feel better.  Once he came to me and did not say anything.  He smiled, put down the mail and walked away. Does this mean he can't help me anymore?  I go to sleep asking for his advice.  Lately, he has nothing to say. 

In any case it does not matter if your dad is living or not.  Or if he had his problems or not.  If you know your dad loved you, remember him.  Remember him in any way you think he would like.  Make a toast to him.  Tell a story. Tell a dumb joke.  Go to a ball game.  Sing a song.  Keep his favorite things close. Do anything you want just tell them you love them.  I LOVE YOU DAD!  Take care.