OK so I have been bad and not posting the way I wold like to. This is a bad time of year for me too. My Father passed away December 6, 2001. It has been 10 years and I miss him every day, I know He had his issues but he did love me and want the best for me. I wonder what he thinks now that things are going better but I am still basically unemployed. Is it hard for him to be proud of me now? I really miss taking him to lunch on his birthday and watching him with my four legged children. He doesn't know any of the ones I have now. I miss you dad and love you.
On the upside of life, all Christmas presents have been ordered. I have stayed within a decent budget this year with only immediate family and care providers getting gifts. I am waiting for 2 to come in. I had to order a lot online because my chair has finally had it and broke down about 3 weeks ago this Wednesday. I like ordering online because you get more choices. I don't like ordering online because I hate to pay shipping costs for what I might be able to get here. I also hate waiting for packages. Especially for Christmases and Birthdays. I always worry that they won't be in in time. I have a few more days before I really need to be concerned. I just wait and hope.
Living without a motorized chair has been the real challenge. I am used to going where I want when I want. I actually had to give up a substitute job because I can't get out without help. That is bad but there was really nothing I could do. It's really frustrating when you have a chance to work and can't because you can't get there. As a person diagnosed with depression, all of these challenges and issues build up and this time of year and I kick into survival mode. But I'm still here. I have a birthday coming up and I actually am looking foreword to it. In any case, That is what's up for now. Catch up with everyone later and take care.
