As you can imagine after yesterday's series of events I figured I would sleep pretty well. I was really exhausted. I had hoped that I could settle in quietly. I did sleep for about 4 or 5 hours. Then for some reason we lost power. When you depend on electric for everything, losing power sucks. It means you can't charge your chair or use the home phone and the cell phone needs to be watched. Your electric bed won't move at all and there is no air conditioning so you are likely to have an asthma attack or at least be uncomfortable. I always feel alone at this time because my thoughts get the better of me. I think about all the dumb mistakes I have made. I think about the fact that I have no job and no money. I wonder if my efforts are really going to change anything. Normally I watch a movie or do cross stitch to deal with these thoughts. I can't watch a movie without the TV and I can't cross stitch without light. I play games on my phone, call the electric company and wait. Try to stay still and not get too anxious. In this case power was out from 330 am to 630 am so It was not a total disaster. After the power came back and the house cooled to a comfortable temperature I fell back to sleep and woke up around 11 am. Normally My care provider would be coming in but she has doctors orders to rest a few days. So I decided to doze a bit. I turned to find my four legged child sleeping next to me. She had the contented smile that cats get when they are safe and snuggled. Just like this picture.
I also heard from my care provider today. She was worried about ME. She was worried about me? I was worried about her! I told her not to worry, just rest. This is just like an extra Sunday. I went out today and got sugar for tea, and food for a quick dinner tomorrow. So I have no worries. I thinks she worries because she did not plan to be gone. She is worried I was not prepared. Life brings you things that you aren't prepared for all the time. This is just s few days. Unless her doc says otherwise she will be back. I can deal with it. I spent more money than I wanted but I am prepared for tomorrow. Not a bad day. Take care all
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