It was a really nice day today. Really nice! The sun was out. It was not too hot. If you don't have a job today is a really good day to go for a walk. I had to do some things today though. I had to go see my counselor and talk to the IRS. Yes what a way to ruin a really good day. The counselor wasn't too bad. This counselor is a substitute. My other counselor had some kind of medical issue. This one is here to replace her until she gets back on her feet. The new counselor is young and has a degree in social work. She has said things that can be taken as insulting. I am sure she did not mean it that way and when I hear these things now I don't lose my cool like I used to. I hate hearing them over and over. The biggest insult I hear now is Why don't I go into a day program? Really? A day program? I have more education than most of the people running that day program! That is usually what I say to people when they tell me this. Or that I will only go into a day program if they pay me to work there!! Have you ever visited what they call a day program? Most of the ones I have seen are just big rooms where people sit all day and sleep or watch day time TV. I have no problem with daytime TV but I will not get up to go to some room and watch it. I pay my own bills (most of the time) I can watch my TV in my home. That is what I mean when I say I am NOT to be put in a box. I do not belong in any one's BOX. I will make my own way. Just because I am not working don't stick me in something you think I should be comfortable with just cause it is what is there. I deserve better than just what is there.
Anyway I told the counselor no day program and that that was insulting though I don't think she got it. I spent a lot of time today talking about my crazy family. That always makes me feel very alone. I miss my regular counselor. I left and had lunch. I had a hot dog and chips at a local stand and stepped in to my local IRS office to deal with an IRS matter. I got a notice in the mail that I owed for 09 taxes about $1300. I worked all of 09 so while I am disappointed, I am not surprised. This probably means I won't see a tax refund for some time. I was really hoping I would get something back and be able to put it towards some important bills. The IRS agent was nice. I explained the situation. I am sure he hears this kind of thing all the time. After signing a few papers I agreed to making payments. That is the best I can do under the circumstances. It didn't seem like I had a good day but I think I am doing what I need to to get my life better. How do I feel today?
Hopeful! Take care
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