There is is job fair coming up

There is a job fair coming up in town here.  I am trying to decide if I want to spend money to go to it.  I have been to two of these job fairs since I have been out of work.  It gets to the point where you can almost tell by the looks on people's faces, there is no place for me here.  That is how I feel too there is no place for me here.  I am too disabled and not happy sitting on my butt all day doing nothing.  I used to look at a job fair with some excitement.   It's my chance to network.  My chance to tell people I am here!  Now I look at the fliers and think What is the point?  When people look at you they see a chair.  Even those who supposedly are trained to see the human being.  They just channel you to the disability people.  I have already been there several times.  I need a new place to look or new thing to do.  Madonna gets to reinvent herself every few years.  Why can't I?  OK so I don't have the rocking body.  I may not have all the talent but I am talented and I can do something.  My last employers made me feel like nothing towards the end but my understanding was they did that to a lot of people.  When they were done with you they were done and that was it.  I have done some other things that would lead someone to believe that I would be an asset.  I love talking.  I will listen to any one's issue and try to find a solution.  I like understanding all sides of things.  I need to deal with this the same way I dealt with the house mess.  From the point of view of this isn't working what else can I do?  If anyone has any ideas of things I might be able to try I am open. 

I.m thinking I need to branch outside of this closed place.  With Internet access a phone and a voice I should be able to do this.  Is there a class is self marketing?  I bet if I knew how to market myself better I could be a little more successful and a little less desperate.  Honestly I can see things may be getting better for me but it's just too slow I want to help it along.  Who can I write and say "HIRE ME!"  Who can I talk to that just might make a difference?  I need to take ACTION.  The definition of insanity is doing the same behavior over and over expecting a different result.  I may be crazy and sometimes a bit stupid but I am not insane!  It's time to change my path.  Not sure where yet.  I'll keep ya posted.  All I know is every time I say I'm giving up I have a voice in my head that says no!  Maybe we should listen to that voice.  Take care and be safe.  shop Avon