Follow up to I am still here

I have been spending most of my days filling out paperwork for jobs or one service or another.  Mortgage help has tons of paperwork with it.  Food stamps and energy assistance are other programs that need paperwork.  Then there are the job applications, the constant looking for anything I might be able to do.  I have come to the conclusion that no one will hire me.  Most people just can't see through whatever barriers or judgements they think of when they see me.

The real problem is I don't have enough money to survive.  Food stamps will help me eat.  Energy assistance (if I get it) will pay part of my bills.  I must pay something.  Then there is heat.  I hate winter.  It's cold. Muscles hurt in cold.  My heating bill should be around $1200.00 for 6 months.  Energy assistance will pay some but the last time I applied I still had to pay 4 months of it.   I don't want to  seem ungrateful,   Any help I get is appreciated beyond what I can express. But I am really scared.  I have tried every idea I have and nothing is working.   I am at my wits end and have decided to keep trying whatever I can on my own to get a job.  This may include selling Avon.  I have a friend that does this.  I hope I won't be stepping on her toes.  We really don't have the same friends so I don't think it will matter. 

Selling has never been a strong skill of mine.  I have bought Avon on and off through the years so maybe I can sell some.  What else is there to do?

Here are a list of skills I have.

• I can teach
• I can speak in public
• I am comfortable with computers
• I am good at making fliers and business cards
• I love talking to people
• I have some sign language skills
• I love providing information.
• I have a good eye for creating presentations fliers and business cards  

That's a lot of skills.  Yet no job.  frustrating.  Scary Need thoughts of hope.  Take care